My Virtual Diary

This weekend I did some cool shit. Well, Sunday and Monday I did. Which really isn't a weekend so ignore the "This Weekend" part xD. Anyhoo here's what happened.

On Sunday I got up at 3 AM to drive to Key Largo for a snorkeling trip. It was worth the drive (which, might I add, was 3 fucking hours) because what I saw in the Gulf of Mexico was AMMAAAAAZZZZINGGGGG!

We went to the coral reef and omfg I saw fish I didn't even know existed. Anyone ever read Rainbow the Fish as a kid? I SAW RAINBOW XDDD! And I also saw a whole bunch of really cool plants and it was like...like...FINDING NEMO!!!!!! Yeah, that's it! It was aweeesome! I saw a whole bunch of cool shit. The only bad part about it was I swallowed a shit load of salt water which is NOT fun. Trust me. Also, it was a WORK OUT. I'm just glad we didn't miss the boat when we left. Otherwise I'd have to swim to shore from the fucking middle of the ocean =P

Then today I went on an airboat ride through The Everglades which was cool. An alligator was ready to jump into our boat! O_O Luckily the captain drove it away. =D Otherwise, I might not be writing right now O.o We saw cool stuff there too. I got to make a crab trap! xD Wow, I really am Floridian now xDD.

Meh. Whatever. I had fun. And now I'm back and on the computer. Woo.

Not much else to say really except for this:

YOU'RE GONNA DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE3333333333333!

*cough* That is all

I'm running out of ideas for titles *sigh* so i type in random shit! =D

Ok, so she was here today. She had marks on her arm and the art teacher was limping. O.o

Audrey: Maybe he was limping cuz she tried to get away O.o
Me: O.o

I was gonna ask her where she was the past two days but I couldn't. The words just wouldn't come out. So I settled for basically checking her out for marks xD She noticed me like once which was a good thing. Otherwise I think she'd start asking questions. Aaand I wouldn't wanna answer them =P weee beginning of 8th grade again! xD

On a lighter note, I was so bored in social studies I grabbed out my ipod and started listening to Welcome to the Jungle and I had a paper and pencil in front of me right? I wrote, "WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE" in really huge letters on it and made like, deformed trees at the bottom and on the side I put:


You know where you are?
You're in the jungle baby!
You're gonna die!


Alex was looking at me like, "WTF?" and I'm like, "I'm bored and listening to a good song." He looked at me weird and went back to watching the gay movie we were watching. I started putting a whole bunch of shit around the, "WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE" letters. It was pretty cool when I was done when the bell rang. I threw it out though =P

Oh, and in science I was so bored I did the same thing with Paradise city pretty much except this it what I put on the side:

Take me down to the Paradise City
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Take me home

I threw that one out too =P In math I did it with Pain by Three Days Grace and yeah...that's how boring my school is. In language arts I actually have fun doing what the teacher wants us to do O.o. Today we went outside to read =D Shes like, "It's so freaking cold in here! How bout we go outside today?" and everyone's like, "yeah!" so we went outside yay!

Ok, she wasn't here today again. *bangs head against the keyboard*

My friend gave me something to look on the bright side about the situation. She's from Ukraine right? So maybe she went there for spring break and just left early. I REALLY hope it's that. Well, I'll find out if she's back after spring break. Or tomorrow. *sigh*

On a lighter note, Ana has officially made me love GNR =P It's hard not to fall in love with them. Especially when they're so goddamn sexy. O.o lol and they got great music. I can listen to Welcome to the Jungle over and over without it getting old...or Rocket Queen...or Paradise City...or...you get the point. *goes to download more GNR* This is gonna take a while....

Ha, I told Erick about the sex noises in Rocket Queen and when I got it on my ipod I had him listen to it and he's just all O_O. xD He's so naive and innocent. He didn't know what pitcher and catcher meant! if you don't just think about it for a second.

Pitcher....

Catcher....

lol I asked him if he was a pitcher or a catcher and he's like, "Catcher!" all proud like XDDDD! I started laughing so hard and he's like, "What?" Now me and Audrey call him Catcher. lol someone had to TELL him what it meant in 7th hour! I bet if no one told him he still wouldn't get it xD. He's stupid like that =P and EXTREMELY gay. If you met him, you'd understand.



Well, nothing else is up really. Besides the fact my mom is in Minneapolis for the next like 4 days so I'm stuck home alone with my dad and brother for the next four days *sigh* Help me!

Also, I'm reaaaaly cold for some reason =[

I'm scared for this girl in my art class. I'll explain why.

Ok, so we have a new art teacher right? He's CREEPY. Like, sex offender creepy. And it's not just cuz of how he looks either. He is creepy. He's socially awkward. He'll just be staring at someone (in my class it's usually this girl =O) and then randomly start talking. It's really weird.

That and he just has the sex offender look. =P

ALSO, he "prefers" her. So, we were doing a drawing right? She did something that we weren't supposed to do on it and he's like, "Oh, that looks really good." When my friend Erick did it he flipped out. "YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE THAT ON THERE! I HAVE ON THE BOARD SPECIFICALLY HOW I WANT IT DONE!" Blah, blah, blah.

And THEN we were doing these mask things and she put her paper mache on the inside of her mask to make it smoother and he walked right by her and said, "That's a cool idea." When my friend Erick did it, again, he flipped out. "YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE IT ON THE OUTSIDE! START OVER!" Blah, blah, blah.

She is also hot. I mean GODDESS hot. Think of the hottest girl you know and multiply that by 10. She's hotter then that. Ok, I'm just exaggerating that time lol but seriously. She is HOT. And foreign. And A FUCKING GODDESS AT ART. She's better then I or my entire 8th grade class of 2008 could EVER be. She's like amazing. That time I'm not exaggerating.

So, me, Audrey, Erick, and Megan were joking during lunch like, "Oh, he's gonna rape her. She better look out." You know? Stuff like that.

All right. This is where it gets creepy.

She is almost NEVER absent. She's late a lot but she's like RARELY absent. I can't remember the last time she was absent seriously.

She wasn't here today. O.o

Makes you wonder......

I don't know. Maybe I'm just being paranoid cuz I like her but this guy is seriously CREEPY. I wouldn't be surprised if he did anything to her. If he did though, oh, he better watch out. I WILL PERSONALLY KICK HIS ASS IF HE TOUCHED HER. 

I'll know for sure if something happened if she's not here tomorrow because she's NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER gone two days a week or more.

Goddamnit! Now I'm gonna have nightmares of her like in some closet or some ditch or something *shudders*  

WEEE! I have to say this too. HAPPY (late) BIRTHDAY CHESTER! You know, I checked lpfic for hott Bennoda PWPs and there were NONE there! WTF! The only thing I saw CLOSE to one of those was a fuckin' drabble and it really wasn't hot or anything. Just fluff.

Meh, whatever. ANYWAY, I'm so happy it's three day weekend. THAT MEANS MORE SIM TORTURE! Yay! lol I love torturing Sims. Especially my LP Sims. Maybe my MCR ones if I get the time. My Veronaville is becoming overcrowded with new generations coming in and blah blah blah.

It's insane really but I'm keeping up with it. As for Romeo and Julliete: They're MARRIED! Yep. Married. Ok, ok. Here's my fan fiction pairings I have on there.

Mike Shinoda and Chester Bennington MARRIED and (with the help of boolprop cheats xD) Chester's PREGNANT! WOO! YAY FOR MPREG!

Pete Wentz and Patrick Stump are still in the lovers stage. I haven't gotten them married yet =P. Though, I DID make them Woohoo in a changing room xD. lol the cashiers were all like throwing their hands in the air and trying to get them out. It was FUNNY. Then they came out all wobbly like xD.

*starts to sing* welcome to the jungle, *dances* THAT SONG IS STUCK IN MY HEAD THANKS TO SOMEONE..*coughanacough*. Yeah, I just watched that music video cuz she said something about moaning and I'm like O_O. Now it's stuck in my head.

Hehe, I should sing it in front of my dad just to piss him off. He hates GNR *gasp*. O_O I know right? He's weird. =P

Well, whatever. I'm gonna stop now. Byebye! *dances* ohhh yay! Blow Me Away! *sings* I'll be the one to save us alll!

Events by Eventful

Events by Eventful

Even if you don't even live there, do it for me. I've been through some really bad shit lately. I really would LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LVOE LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU DEMANDED TDG IN SARASOTA.

If you don't know where that is; it's in Florida where I live. (duh)

So please demand....for me?

Bleh. I really can't. No bad things for today. Also, I just heard today that Patrick from Fall Out Boy was gay. See, my friend said that on stage once (no one knew he was gay at the time) Patrick's BOYFRIEND came up on stage and Patrick KISSED HIM FULL ON THE MOUTH. She says it was quite hottt. xD Anyhoo, I haven't personally seen this video but I do have proof of my own.

Look closely at the lyrics to Thanks for the Memories.

I'm gonna make you bend and break
Say a prayer, but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show (let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that makes the words come to life
"Who does he think he is"
If that's the worst you've got better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
HE tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See HE tastes like you only sweeter
ohhhhhh

I'm looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
Is always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand
One night stand, OH!

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
HE tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See HE tastes like you only sweeter

They say I only think in the form of
Crunching numbers in hotel rooms
Collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind
Gets you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from
Getting you into the mood (wa-ooooohhh)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
HE tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See HE tastes like you only sweeter

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
HE tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See HE tastes like you only sweeter

If you didn't notice that...you my friend are very stupid indeed.   

*sigh* Now all I need is for Mike and Chester to come out the fucking closet already and I'll be in Heaven XD   

Me? Fans? O.o It can't be! *checks reviews again*...still don't believe it. ME? I suck! How can I have fans?!!!!! Um...*looks again*

You know that song by Sum 41? It's the new song I have permentantly stuck in my head...Ugh...Here's the lyrics

Lately,
I'm not quite myself.
Maybe,
I do need some help.
just my confusion,
trust my delusions.

Don't you,
Regret you met me.
go through,
These steps to get me,
Back to where we start,
Before I fall apart.

If I could black out,
It'd become so clear,
Standing face-to-face with everything I fear.
watch so closely,
but still I don't see.
As bad as it seems,
a piece of mind I'd steal,
In ordinary life,
The consequence is real.
I'm past the point of reality.

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
But it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

It's like a bad dream,
That's becoming all so true,
Leaving me with nothing else left to do.
Now so helpless,
I'm not so selfish.
Tell me,
How does it feel to have a face like that,
How does it feel to be replaced like that.
Now so faceless,
Do you still feel?

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
But it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

It's hard to believe right now,
This seems to be real.
It's unfazing by this time,
So why can't I wake up.

This isn't me,
This isn't you,
But it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

I am probably seriously like not even friends with Kerrigan anymore. She said she doesn't like my swearing on myspace...Ok, EVERYONE swears. She should seriously get over it. Ugh. It pisses me off when someone can't take a fucking swear. I mean, they're just words right? I don't even understand why they're bad. I mean, they're WORDS. Fuck is a word just like Pain. I don't get the difference.

Yeah, so she messaged me and was like, "Can you stop swearing and talking shit? My friends and mom say I should take you off my myspace." You know what I said?

" everybody cusses...ok? everyone on MY friend's list at least..if you don't like it..then fine..delete me..i dont care" She probably will I don't know. Whatever.

I'm probably gonna work on my story some more soon. I don't know. Ugh...My stomach hurts like fuck. It's not cramps either. It's like my whole stomach. Not just the part where girls get cramps. I should like take a Motrin or something.

Anyway, school as usual sucks. I'm so glad the first semester is over. Just a few more months and I'm OUT of that shit hole forever. That's actually like the only reason I stay alive come to think about it. I'm getting out of that shit hole.

Whatever. No one cares. I should really shut up. *sigh*

Say goodbye
As we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight
Hold on
Hold on
Oh oh oh
.......Goodbye......

Ok. I know a lot of people don't visit my livejournal but for the people who do and love Linkin Park (like me) and fan fiction (also like me) I made a website for you.

http://www.freewebs.com/xxbennodaxx/

Yeah, I know about bennoda.co.nr but I was bored so I made my own. I also made a forum.

http://bennoda.forumotion.com/

It's pretty cool. You don't need to go on the site to go on the forum. So yeah. Hopefully you take a look at it. I'll probably post something on myspace too. I mean, I already did but maybe in my blog there or something.

Eh, whatever. I put it on Google (or submitted it to be) so hopefully I'll get lots of hits. I'd really like it if you checked it out.

Hi 2008! I have one request of you. Don't be as mean to me as 2007 was. If you could actually make some things work for me this year I'd love you.

I have a feeling this year is going to make me actually happy for once. I don't know why thought. Maybe it's the fact that in May I'm leaving the shit hole known as Venice fucking Middle. I am going to be so glad when it's over. I feel sorry for my brother though. He has to go through two more years of it. I hope he can get through it without the shit I went through.

On the surface I hate my brother but deep down if he had to go through all that drama and killed himself because of it I'd be crushed. He said he wouldn't care if I killed myself but he's lying. Deep down he cares. I've seen that part of him before when I almost broke my arm once.

So yeah, 2008 better be better. I really think it will be but who knows. Oh and another thing. In April it will be the 1 year anniversary of me falling in love with HIM. At first I thought it was just some crush I would get over but NO. I had to go and fall in fucking love with him. I realized this after I un-fell completely for HER.

Now, I'd do anything to get rid of this pain known as love. He's treated me like dirt for a while and I don't know why I even love him. I hate everything about him but I love him..Hmmm...That sounds familiar. (Three Days Grace- I Hate Everything About You).

Oh, I do have one thing to look forward to now. IN MARCH I'M GOING TO SEE THREE DAYS GRACE LIVE! AHHHH! BREAKING BENJAMIN AND SEETHER ARE ALSO ARE GONNA BE THERE! ALL WE NEED IS LINKIN PARK AND I'M IN FUCKING HEAVEN. MUSIC I LOVE YOU! YOU GIVE ME A REASON TO LIVE!

Happy new year people. I can say 2007 has been the WORST year of my life. I've thought about killing myself more times then ever. I've cried too many times to count. I've had my heart broken more times then I can count. I actually was really close to just giving up last week Friday night listening to Pain by Three Days Grace.

I moved away from the people I loved. I THOUGHT I just started liking HIM in July. Then I had to go and start liking HER when school started which only added to the pain. Then, as I'm completely over her now I've realized my feelings for HIM are still intact if not stronger. He broke my heart into a million pieces. I don't know who he is anymore. I love him but he doesn't give a fuck about me. I don't even know why I love him. I don't want to. It literally hurts in my chest.

Just talking about it makes it hurt. Hell, I'll fall for her again just to get these feelings to go away. Anyway, this has been the worst year of my life and I really hope 2008 is better.

I really hate life. The only reason I don't kill myself is because some people actually do love me and I know it would just kill them if I did that. So now I only stay alive for their sake. If they all died though...Nothing would stop me from taking a fucking knife and shoving it in my chest.

Yeah, that about sums it up. I don't want to go back to school so fucking back. I hope everyone forgot about everything I haven't over winter break. *sigh*

Well, happy new year..I hope yours is good.

Merry late Christmas. My Christmas was probably the worst ever. I spent the whole day on memory lane and that just made me cry myself to sleep that night. Isn't that lovely? Anyhoo, Kerrigan is most likely never talking to me again..*sigh*.... Erick got me addicted to the Sims. Oh, I have to tell you about that.

I'm going to kill Erick. He bought me the Sims 2 for Christmas...I'm fucking addicted now. It's like a drug. Once you start, you can't stop. I love it. I made a gay couple, a lesbian couple, and a straight couple. The gay couple is married lol because I wanted to get them together the fastest...You know why? If you know me...Then you know what I made the names..Here's a hint.

BENNODA FUCKING RULES!

Muhahaha. I'm evil for doing that. I get kinda slashy shows every day now because of that couple. Seriously, Sims 2 is kinda bad if you're like really young xD

Oh, I also have a very depressed teenager who's getting F's in school aand she saw the social bunny xD. That's a fantasy thing you see if you don't socialize enough and she saw it while she was relaxing in bed. It scared the shit out of me the first time I saw it. I thought it was going to kill her. xD

Eh, whatever. Sims makes me happy soo yeah.

"Hey, Kelli do you like me?"

"No. Why do you ask?"

"Well, there's just some rumors going around."

"Key word-Rumors"

"I know but I think it might be true."

-trying to stay calm- "Why do you say that?"

"Well, I've noticed you've been kind of ignoring me lately."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because you switched seats in health, you don't wait for me anymore in the beginning of the day, and whenever I come up to you and Audrey you make some excuse to walk away."

-thinks of some way to explain herself- "Well...Come on...You really don't believe those rumors. Do you?" -mentally smacks self for stupid comeback-

"I'm not sure...I'll have to think about this." -walks away-